So, I'm writing a book. Yessir, this here guy is writing a book. Not too many of you who check out my blog know this. In fact, I've sort of kept it a secret. I plan to self publish it no matter what. It's all about DIY. Punk is back in a new way. It's so punk, it's the Wild West. All this new uncharted territory of how people put out content is unprecedented. I discussed this before that this blog was my own way of putting out my content. I couldn't get a shot with a mainstream form. I needed to do it myself. I don't have the mega hits, or notoriety. This isn't about the end game. It's about the process.
My book is a collection of anecdotes about my time in New York. I have a love/hate relationship with New York. I loved her once, and now we're divorced. My collection of shorts are funny, tragic, happy, sad, and truthful. That being said, I'm also very embarrassed to put them out. Granted, I don't shy away from expressing myself. This is different though. I am going to be displaying my innards in a very different way. I am putting myself out there for all to judge. Below, I am putting out a taste of the content.
"I didn’t know these people. I had never met them, and assumed I would never see them again. Even so, I was still embarrassed. I thought they knew. They knew I was on the Internet looking for cheap sex. I had no intention of having sex tonight, but was embarrassed all the same. I wanted to explain to them that while I was a sexual compulsive I had limits, dammit. I wasn’t a complete disgusting animal. At least, I hoped I wasn’t a complete disgusting animal. We had another drink. I practiced my Spanish. We talked about the city, and how cold it was. I explained that I had lived in Miami for five years, and that’s why my Spanish was decent. I ate a handful of chips, and felt the alcohol in my veins. Now, I no longer cared what anybody thought. I was in that eighty proof zone. I felt sexy, and I felt like salsa dancing."
This book is a mediation on youth. I need to have courage in order to put the words out there. It's going to take a courage mindset in order to do this. I'm working through it. I hope one day in the near future you guys will be reading this, and enjoying it. Either way, I'll still be practicing BJJ, drawing meat, and posting videos of my beach workouts!